last night b4 i close this chapter…

last insert tml morn.. 

yes.. final insert done.. i will go for the blood test later @lunch tim..  when the nurse calls, i hope i will be in the training, so that it can help to distract me…

tiring try for so long, but lookin @junior makes me feel its worth it.. his love for food n people…

he rem i m goin for bloodtest later.. comforted in a way…

this should be the last time i step into kkivf.. a lot of memories.. the nurse said i m so sorry when she learnt i m bleeding lots already.. i replied its ok, this is my 3rd n i do not have any frozen.. i already have a kid from my 2nd cycle..

this is my last look while waitin 4taxi.. i m goin hm later 2hug my cuddly bear.. 

the final waiting…

after being through so much since 2012, this is like the second last night of waiting..

on thur the nurse will call n say not preg and u can stop all medication.. i will tell her dun need to make aptm with thh coz i dun intend to follow up anymore round of any treatment…

thh helped us have junior in our arms.. we r very grateful already.

though i m so sad to hav $10k wash down the drain jus like this.. but i believe everythg happens for  a reason.

sm1 is snozing off now.. like a little baby when he jus came hm with us…

i still rem how i regret that i din go blood test earlier n stop the med for the 1st round.. i knw this tim its def a neg, but i still rem that feeling…

after this et

its a 2d trf on 1 jul fri.

b4 that are twitches n pullin..

7d2dt – on fri i started to see dots of red

9d2dt – on sun i see small streaks of red

10d2dt – this mon morn streaks of red on crione applicator red, dark red.. n when i wipe..

i will go bt on sat..  @least i can tell the nurse i m spottin… hope i can last till then…

the streak of red turn to flow of red.. urgg.. the earliest i can go for blood test is thur..  mus try 2tahan till then…

finally let go…

i din poo since er.. finally 2day i did.. ice milo does the magic…

it feels really good n i feel lighter..

i m inserting the med diligently..  jus 2b sure we leave no regrets…

this is how it looks from the top.. aft bidding bye bye to the fishes!

this is the 3rd fresh…

21 eggs

20 usable

14 fertilised

12 multi-nuclear embryo, not usable by kk ivf lab standards. chance of correction low & even if it leads to pregnancy, it will miscarry.

1 grade 3 d2 embryo trf

1 bi-nuclear embryo under observation trf, as per thh instructions

thh exact words is history repeat itself, many eggs but only 1 or 2 embryos

this cycle is a test of my endurance.. i jab until bruises red itch all over…a sticky junior charging at me like a bull, knocking his head all over me, n cling on me like a koala n smellin my clothes.. in addition of switchin to his new school..

i think i tried my best, at my age n his age, i dun think the next cycle will be any better.. but at least i tried hard.. 2weeks later i m goin 2try 2bend their rules n go 4bt early… n also help myself to move on on a new week…

we will see..

experience from this 3rd round of fresh…

er day-not much pain or cramp aft er, 21eggs.. jus a bit sore n need 2walk slowly.. mayb coz i had a pregnancy b4.. hence body streched 2tolerate the er

little dark red clots n spotting

1d post er-bloat…

spotting

2d post er-bloat n shock by the # of normal embryos

a little spotting

1x crinone gel at noon, aft childcare coz i rush hm immed aft et..n i doze off b4 2nd crinone gel

3d post er-not so bloat liao…

almost no spotting, 3x crinone gel

i shall keep to 2x crinone gel per day till the sat, for now…

er-ing all the way…

gosh… we made it to er.. 21 eggs.. n i really black out aft the sedation.. 

i check in at 8am..thh came in at 9am.. i was the 1st patient doin procedure for the day… 

the sedation drip in  n like a tone of gray flashin over n n i forgot everythg.. by the time i was awake it was 9.40am-ish..
it din hurt tat much lik my 2nd er.. n i din break out in cold sweat aft er too… i could eat.. nap..

but i do feel very very bloated.. we will see how it goes for fri.. i need 2do blood test for ohss.. interesting..

smthg pre er to sooth myself…