the weekend..

we went to see dr teo.. he is lik wat i rem him.. no pr, direct.. good judgement..

his bedside manners quite good.. he never did any scannin for me while @kkivf..

the wait was really nothing.. once we were done with registration we can see him..

conclusion he see a tiny cystic sac.. 3mm.. too small to b called anythg.. back two weeks to scan again.. he feel we should giv it time 2grow..

this is the 1st tim i dun hav 2wait 2see a gyne.. even for 1st aptm of the day..

a bit ex on surcharge.. still exlporin..

no matter wat it is at least another two weeks wait..

we cam out for walk.. i rem jus 3y ago, 2013 countdown to 2014, we were here 2see fireworks n that was a year of many battle n scars.. n it was when the chemical pregnancy episode jus wrap up…

we really wish what is ours will come, n we will hav another healthy baby in our arms…

i need to remind myself, even if a miscarriage is around the corner, there is nothing we can do..

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the final waiting…

after being through so much since 2012, this is like the second last night of waiting..

on thur the nurse will call n say not preg and u can stop all medication.. i will tell her dun need to make aptm with thh coz i dun intend to follow up anymore round of any treatment…

thh helped us have junior in our arms.. we r very grateful already.

though i m so sad to hav $10k wash down the drain jus like this.. but i believe everythg happens for  a reason.

sm1 is snozing off now.. like a little baby when he jus came hm with us…

i still rem how i regret that i din go blood test earlier n stop the med for the 1st round.. i knw this tim its def a neg, but i still rem that feeling…

after this et

its a 2d trf on 1 jul fri.

b4 that are twitches n pullin..

7d2dt – on fri i started to see dots of red

9d2dt – on sun i see small streaks of red

10d2dt – this mon morn streaks of red on crione applicator red, dark red.. n when i wipe..

i will go bt on sat..  @least i can tell the nurse i m spottin… hope i can last till then…

the streak of red turn to flow of red.. urgg.. the earliest i can go for blood test is thur..  mus try 2tahan till then…

this is the 3rd fresh…

21 eggs

20 usable

14 fertilised

12 multi-nuclear embryo, not usable by kk ivf lab standards. chance of correction low & even if it leads to pregnancy, it will miscarry.

1 grade 3 d2 embryo trf

1 bi-nuclear embryo under observation trf, as per thh instructions

thh exact words is history repeat itself, many eggs but only 1 or 2 embryos

this cycle is a test of my endurance.. i jab until bruises red itch all over…a sticky junior charging at me like a bull, knocking his head all over me, n cling on me like a koala n smellin my clothes.. in addition of switchin to his new school..

i think i tried my best, at my age n his age, i dun think the next cycle will be any better.. but at least i tried hard.. 2weeks later i m goin 2try 2bend their rules n go 4bt early… n also help myself to move on on a new week…

we will see..

experience from this 3rd round of fresh…

er day-not much pain or cramp aft er, 21eggs.. jus a bit sore n need 2walk slowly.. mayb coz i had a pregnancy b4.. hence body streched 2tolerate the er

little dark red clots n spotting

1d post er-bloat…

spotting

2d post er-bloat n shock by the # of normal embryos

a little spotting

1x crinone gel at noon, aft childcare coz i rush hm immed aft et..n i doze off b4 2nd crinone gel

3d post er-not so bloat liao…

almost no spotting, 3x crinone gel

i shall keep to 2x crinone gel per day till the sat, for now…

er-ing all the way…

gosh… we made it to er.. 21 eggs.. n i really black out aft the sedation.. 

i check in at 8am..thh came in at 9am.. i was the 1st patient doin procedure for the day… 

the sedation drip in  n like a tone of gray flashin over n n i forgot everythg.. by the time i was awake it was 9.40am-ish..
it din hurt tat much lik my 2nd er.. n i din break out in cold sweat aft er too… i could eat.. nap..

but i do feel very very bloated.. we will see how it goes for fri.. i need 2do blood test for ohss.. interesting..

smthg pre er to sooth myself…