its not about what turns out, its who u become

test n tribulation r part of life.. mei mei tsh readin did not come down n we need to see an endocrinologist tml… hope its a transient case n it will normalise in the predefined way…

I bought the chicken essence from tw, it jus started sales in sg.. its very close to hm-made ones!

I m tryin to claim my hospitalization bill from the shield plan I bought many yrs ago.. the hospital submitted my diagnosis n it was not successful.. I m trying for reassessment, I ask dr teo for a memo and he sent in the same afternoon… lets wait for the final outcome. hope its positive!

we will become stronger person, fighting our way out…

the cord

lik junior, thank u precious cord for supplying essentials to mei mei during the 30++ weeks while she is in my womb.. she is now happy, latchin n drkin from bottle… she still need a few more test, but overall she is shinning…

it seems lik few days ago tat I got a positive from the hpt.. it was end of nov, jus b4 junior switch to the new sch… we saw the sac, the fetal pole, the hb, the proluton, panorama test, the oscar scan, spotted notches, started aspirin, bad nauseous, diclectin, the detail scan, the growth scan, the reflux, protein in urine, brg forward delivery, steroid jab desa, heart palpitations, bring forward delivery to, 35w 6d… hb drop n mei mei arrived… cord around neck

the first week

junior was very sensitive, he oberved how everyone treated him and mei mei.. if gong gong din greet him first he will b sad…
dar dar seem very stress with 2 children n the mountain of housework..  but what he is doin is jus a fraction of what I did while being preggie n taking care of junior..

everybody problem is my problem…

I hav to wash my own pump parts… 

mei mei is back at mt a for phototherapy.. she lost too much weight too… n the hospital will check the thyroid tsh n ft4 tml morn to see if it normalise… I will need to supplement with formula when we are back, hope she will not b so fussy at night…

something random, I like how my freestyle screen backdrop backlight lights up.. no need to hit any button, it jus lights up…

I never realise that I have to use the pump so soon.. glad I already have it…

being back at dr steven clinic gives a special sentiment.. no more baby in the womb.. no more baby kicking well.. its checkin if the womb went back in place n the wound…

the induction for mei mei…

at 12.30am first pill n 2cm dialated..

protein in urine reading at+1

junior is at hm sleepin with popo…

8am dr teo cam n check.. 3.5cm n he broke waterbag…

at 11am it was 4cm..

at 12pm+++ the nurse sees contraction fast n furious.. it was 9cm.. I was given oxygen.. the nurse say breath in deep deep n mummy dun cry.. we need to take in a lot of oxygen for the baby..

n mei mei arrive at 1.17pm, few pushes.. lik 2 or round.. mayb 3 or 4.. dr teo says he will use vaccum, if I push on my own it will take a long time… n he can vaccum the head out.. he dun see a big problem…

the final push hb drop till 80… omg.. baby out n she cried..

the cord was around the neck.. 

the moment I saw the hb droppin I regretted if I should gone for csect to stop mei mei from all the stress… 

mei mei arrived with a cry.. dr teo is very calm n vaccum the bb out…

dr tan cam jus in tim to check on bb…

small bundle @2.6kg…

post delivery I had a very bad gush of blood flowing out after first latch n broke out in cold sweat… n it was very painful.. the one point if muscle tightening pain..

the nurses called dr teo n administered an oxytocin alike med to help with contraction… n massage the womb to help contraction.. dr teo cam later in the evening n checked the womb… I never felt so weak…

the nex morning, I had big clots discharge as I walk to bath rm n cough slightly… its as big as my fist… dr teo saw the pics the nex morn, he said my placenta was normal.. 

35wks n the protein scare

I move my appointm early coz I had a lot of stomach acid n reflux.. so in the end the routine check show there are traces of protein in urine.. I did a blood test n 24h urine test to check on the levels… I took 2days off from work but went back fri noon.. its not possible to do anythg coz I need to collect all my urine…

will see doc tml to review the results.. hope all is well… very tiring.. n we hav a very cranky junior in the house…

dr teo opinion is that if labour starts now we will brg the baby out, at most nicu 1-2 days, baby can drk milk we can brg the baby home.. 

I hav a body bones loosening feelin since sat.. I hope it goes away… very soon… I really wish to hang on till 37wks…

we went bck on mon.. the 24hr urine test shows protein in urine n the readin is quite high at 285… he feels it will not go away n may get seizure anytime.. its preeclampsia n I m suppose to see him on wed to strech the cervix n brg bb out… we take 2steroid jab.. 12hrs apart.. 1st jab at the clinic 10am n I took a cab to tmc 24h clinic for 2nd jab at 10pm.. in the end I could not sleep on mon night n felt baby move less… much lesser..  the usual kicks gone..
on tues morn I went back to ofc for a handover discussion n called the clinic to ask for a walk in aptm.. he had a surgery at 10.30am.. so we did ctg check first.. baby is ok n i m havin contraction.. he ask if we r ready to bring bb out tonight.. I say jus brg out.. I dun wan another sleepless night…

he feels the baby weight is good n I had one big baby b4.. we can try natural n see how it progress.. if it dun progress we will do e-csect n we will know a csect is really needed..  

so on tues night, we had dinner at mum hse, waited for sis to come, went hm bath junior n pack his cc bag… at 10pm-ish we drove out, deposit his cheques n came to the prata place to eat dinner/super… ard 11.45 we went to delivery ward n started the waitin…

this place is where we used to hand out when junior was still in my tummy, esp aft the antenatal classes… time flies…

while eatin, the usual kicks n movement came back…