cd 5 cycle 16, 3rd day of puregon jabbin

i got more tired aft gym on tues, sleepin on é sofa for like 1 hr late noon while laundryin is goin on in kitchen.

wed was a nightmare. i could hardly get out of bed even at 10am. i was 30mins late from my planned jab time. i staggered out of bedrm, was hardly able 2stand up straight n rest on sofa 4another 10 mins… mayb begining of a nightmare.

finally made my way 2é fridge n jab another dose of 150iu puregon. é rest of é day was still feelin tired, lethagic n restless. tml onwards i will hav 1 more injection for 5days (thur-mon). hope i dun feel worse aft this additional drug.

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but i did not let myself roll on sofa or bed longer. made lunch, noodles, cai xin n frozen seafood.. aft lunch i vaccum é house, mop n clean up our home a bit. it’s been a while n thgs r gettin dusty…

bath, used é long bought body scrub, fancl powder scrub sample… as part of my effort 2clear these long time purchase…
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tidied è working desk n moved my laptop in2 é platform rm, fixed é fallin out stuff in é rm. it’s been too long, no more slacking. all thgs in place, on pc, printed é KL trip air tickets, checked details again, clipped on our little white board. together w/my medan trip, they are all in one stack. am applying 4jobs, hopefully will get smthg i will enjoy doing! smtimes i think back do i regret leavin my seemingly pretigous position in é bank n laze @hm 无所事是 all day… actually i really dun, i would hav gone crazy if i stayed on. now i look 4ward 2a new role, either something i like or something less with responsibility.

this is my wish n plan, god bless, please let it come true. but as always life throws us all over è place, so nx yr this tim, xmas, let’s see how n wat we will be!

18-29 nov – stimulating med
2 dec – er
4 dec – et
7-8 dec – medan
11 dec – dental aptm
13-15 dec – KL
16 dec – start work (watever work)
21 dec – blood test, bfp (hopefully)
early sep 2014 – edd healthy bb (hopefully hopefully please!!)

like i always say my wishes to zsnn, please bless us with a healthy baby, we will 还願 with red eggs, share è blessings with more 信徒 n 添香油.

i really tried my best, keep my weight not over 60kg, exercise as n when i can. rest, drk vit c, cherries.

please let this nov 2013 cycle b a success with a good pregnacy n healthy baby, i m not afraid of é loneiness @hm alone, giddy/headache, pain of injection or any discomfort to come with er, but i m very frighten of failure.. afraid 4af to start.. sobzz… i imagine while waitin 2go 4er, if i meet sm1 @é operatin theatre while queuing, i will smile n tell é person how scared i m of failure…

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cd 26, cycle 14, 11d past so-iui

i wok up 6.45am from his alarm, i got up to check he is also awake… i took my bbt, n it’s dropped a lot..

n i hav quite a lot of bumb on lower cheeks… growl…

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i m usin a new app for bbt as there is no kindara in android phone… sobz… bye bye 2all my old data… i only hav pdf copies of é charts now…

half awake, i checked é emails n saw i had an order… é princess cupcake stand!! i went 2post ofc 2post ard 1.30pm, é auntie was really blur hope it doesn’t get é package lost…

later in é day, i rec’ed another n interestingly, this lady hav é same chinese name as me… she was orderin é giraffe shelf, i rec’ed é bank trf n will try 2send her item tml…

he got off work n we went ikea lookin for é tap. on é way there, i suggested 2try é oyster egg at tampines my ex-clg told me b4… we ended up in a very foreign neighbourhood. it’s nt é correct place but it’s an intg neighbourhood. we tried é oyster egg n mixed carrot cake there…

subq we managed 2find é correct neighbourhood police post n kopitiam tat sells supposedly yummy oyster egg, shall try nex tim…

aft ikea, aft changi city point chill, we went 2simpang bedok 4supper… yes, supper again n simpang bedok again! another shop today, their bee hoon goreng is superb!
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we went around bedok grocery shoppin, many places… happy 8th anni to us… i really hope 4good baby news, but i can only hope…

cd 15, cycle 14, another follow up

it’s 3day of puregon 100, really hope è follicle is growin well, iui can b done on sat, n it will b a bfp…

we will see…

am @è clinic now, è q is short, lik 10 person b4 me, but it’s movin slowly…

was tellin my watsapp group abt sarcastic remarks from people in my life, wat to do, suck it up, try wat we can n keep movin…

it reminds me of a quite u saw last nite @kelvin master fb

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4 more person till my turn for è scan, hope è follicle is growin big n ready for bfp!!

right – 16mm
linnin – 7.3, no triple

well, è min siz is 17mm, linning should @least b 8. i did not meet both, but opk shows almost positive. è duty doc thinks iui should b done tml, fri 4 oct.

prescribed:
hcg, administered by nurse @kk
patch sm hormones for 3 days
duphaston-progestrone for 17days

dar dar took half day leave tml, poor baby, runnin around with me…

i m prayin very hard, please let this b a bfp n we hav a healthy baby! we will raise è baby to b a kind person.

postin of reg mail, n din @little vietnam, yumzz…

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cd 12, cycle 14, 3rd scan for so-iui

back to kk @10am…

linnin 5.4, right 1 leadin follicle, @ 11.5mm, rest r lik 6-5… left side, è dominant 7.5mm one remain.. è rest @7-6mm…

up puregon to 100 from mon – wed, return on thurs, hopefully è growin follicle is 17mm already, n best if iui to b done on sat, tat will b cd 17.

i cam back aft a quick visit 2paper market @city hall, to use è voucher b4 sep ends…

è old sofa is taken away, hello new ikea sofa tml!!

bye bye old sofa, u served us well for è last 4.5 yrs… è cushion is gettin soggy, time 2replace…

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for è time being, we r left w/a table @living rm… lik so ke lian..

cleanin ceiling fans, re-organising wardrobe, cleanin è very dusty top shelf, tv shelf, changin bedsheets, buzy buzy…

prepared dinner, è onion mince beef was an invention, simple… shower, dar dar went 4a haircut aft work b4 comin back…

dinner was kinda yummy… not bad, shall try 2finish è rest of è frozen fish…

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cd29-33, cycle 13, new week

sleepy mon

è rest of è week was choppy, wed kk visit was fruitful, doc actually changed my protocol to type 2!! i was literally tellin è doc wat to do lik i was on clomid for 7cycle, n how it did not work, and if i should continue with it this iui.. so è flow was tat i waited 2see doc lik 1.5hr pass my 10am aptm time, and waited another 15min more for tat clinic D fertility doc 2change è protocol and issue some forms, called kkivf center.

è kk nurse manager went around distributing jacob biscuits, was really sweet of them as it was around lunch time.

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my name was called again, i was accompanied to mak paym, n sent to kkivf 2wait 4my turn 2b brief about this new protocol.

so with all these done, i went to è pharmacy 2pick up è med.. while waitin, i realise i 4got è mc, i ran back 2clinic and asked è nurse if she can help me ask for a mc from è doc… she confidently said yes and returned with a slip 2mins later… my last med @subz px-sgd1.40.

post kk, i went 2bugis ramen place, it din tasted as good, mayb coz i wasn’t tat hungry or coz i was alone or coz of è biscuit from kk nurse mgr… pick up a pre-paid sim card from s-h, now i m waitin 4my online nano sim card adaptor 2arrive to start è watsapp thing n also publish this num# on my sites…

i was away from ofc è entire morn…

btw tat star is indeed preggie, i canot imagine wat will happen if i m still there.. tat big rock may juz land on me… poor me @then, how do i cope with iui n these shit… even i may seem so stupid to leave my seemingly glam job, i kinda feel no regrets…

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