a fri off work earlier…

i was feelin so sick on thurs, headache since noon.. despite a good din from mummy’s place, i still had this very odd bloated stomach é while night.. my headache grew at night n i literally juz laid on sofa.. é little one from tw called n sang on é phn, it help tak sm of é headache away 4a while actually! at night i wok n vomitted water panadol.. till this morn i still throw out water.. luckily in é day it was better…

i m doin my nails now, no colour, juz removin my calluses, cuticles…

i set my goals at work, but i better tell her my condition when we discuss our goals… i guess she may fire me…

creepin past mid week

some bits here n there… my watsapp grp chat closed juz lik tat, i din really know y but i guess everyone moved on 4a good reason! hope we all hav our cutie pie in arms very very soon.

met my 2bff tue nite n told them about my edd in dec, i can feel they r genuinely happy 4us, n wish us all é best n told me 2dun think too much… b positive, dun think of anythg bad happening. back hm alone, i was extremely tired n dozed off with tv on…

it’s end of wed n he is on é back way from é far east. i had a good din b4 takin é mrt hm.. ex but fulfillin! nex gyne visit is on sat, can’t wait, hope all is good n we tak é oscar bt on mon.

i actually threw out é cup noodle from nose in é noon, tom yum flavour, my inner part of nose was burnin!

in é end i jump onto his car n we walk in 2é usual neighbourhood gyne, we waited 4a patient b4 us, n we saw é dr. he did a scan, saw é umblicia cord, é yolk sac, é fetus n heartbeat. he on è speaker n we heard é heartbeat too. he tried 2do a 3d scan but canot see anythg meaningful.

basically he dun see ivf pregnancy as high risk pregnancy, he jus feel tat it’s a very precious pregnancy. i m still contemplating if i should switch out. let us continue to think… i let out a giggle when i heard é heartbeat. let us b positive!

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n my dearest dar dar is so cute, he never lik 2see doc even when he is ill n free, but when i need 2see gyne 4anythg, he will juz go with me.. n esp now when we go 4extra checks, he will juz pay n ask innocently if he can see é screen durin é scan. each visit 2é ltr gyne is lik sgd120 – sgd130, totally not cheap…

on n b4 last fri of may

wok up early on sat n went 2mkt. nice trip as i got sm veggie, realise kampung chicken is easily available, in half chicken n nicely chopped up. i m so goin 2try 2mak dtf style double boil chicken soup with my ban blessed pot n cook din @hm tml.

went 4a talk n sat in 4a talk by dr p chew, he gives a very experience feel n i think he is almost 70yrs.
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i did é cookin on sun, not exactly é taste i wanted, but aft a day of chores, no need 2step out is a kind of blessing…

5th fri with junior awareness

it’s been slightly more than a mth since é bt call on 19apr sat. n é et call happened on a sat too!

this fri i m sittin on é reserve seat, shamelessly, opps.. but i m juz so tired n giddy smtimes, spare me.

tml should b 9w 3d, nx sat i shall visit dr e 2get a check on junior b4 é down sym screenin bt on mon. tml, we will b visitin a talk at glen on stemcord bankin, hope it’s interesting…

on é doc, smthg i find funny, dr thh will juz scan 1st even b4 askin anythg, i guess 4ivf mummies, scan 1st more impt than anythg else…

on fri evening, he pick me up from ofc n we headed 2holland area 2look 4dinner. é coffeeshop looks not interestin n we tried this claypot rice which is not bad. é wait was abt 20mins plus, n it was not cooked with salted egg nor 腊肠。 double soup is nice too, very home made, cuttle fish n peanuts 2enhance é flavour of é soup. while waitin, i bought a rojak too, it’s quite well prepared n i love é apples in it. xman @great world, like é pace n timin of 8.15pm, went hm n dozed off.. as usual.
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rainy sat morn, kk visit finally

thunder n lighting this morn, i felt it was a bad sign, but he felt it was good so tat it wun b so warm n humid…

finally we r goin back 2see dr thh, hopefully. let’s pray junior is still doin well later… my fear is beyond descriptñ…

we went in2 é consultñ rm lik @10.30am. he said looks ok, edd he is changin to 24 dec. he said é binucleauty embryo affects embryos survival rate, so é lab @kk actually do try their best 2giv é embryos best chance even if it means more work for them. i truely appreciate it, i know these r dif protocol 2follow as most of é embryos most likely wun mak it.

he said he understands we muz b very worried, but no1 can predict é future. any1 of in é rm may not even be around in dec, it’s life. dun think of uneccessary thgs…

also dun think about é nex ivf, or letrozole. jus tak care of urself now…

cheerful nurse @kk doin my registratñ, but i think i m é only mum to be tat does not smile nor look happy… funny goodie bag, good in a sense as i got 2know a new brand of strechmark cream / oil…

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a scary story on thurs night…

i went 2din w/2 old ex-clg… c told me as we were walkin 2a mall tat she had a loss in mar… she have been 2her gyne every week since week 5, n there was no hb at week 10… she seek 2nd opinion with a very famous gyne @glen n he concur… gosh, so sad…

now i feel like throwin up more… i din tak é anti nausea med b4 din.. i think it’s not a wise choice… took a cab hm, 2tired 2day n legs turn jelly aftbhearin wat she said.

on é way 2orc, i saw in forum on j bt result, gav me more fears… everythg was good!

1d to see dr thh… scared…

2days to dr visit

2 more days to dr thh visit at clinic d, he will b away nex week, if junior is gone, i will b torn, heart broken n no trusted doc 2do d&c for me, sobz..

i really wish junior can stay strong n healthy n be in our arms in 8m time…

i felt not so good aft bee hoon goreng dinner, hopefully i get over it n dun result in another merlion episode… i m tryin 2tak more fruits now, hopefully it will ease my constipatñ…

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jus as i finish é last sentence n went 2brush my teeth, i burp out some beehoon goreng, i juz finish brushin my teeth n went 2é bathrm at kitchen 2puke.. easier 2clean up…

eve of vesak day…

aft a very bad throwin up episode last night, i m feelin much better today… i could not believe my stomach was so upset yest tat i can throw out é glucose.. lets’s hope it does not happen again…

i got é kk reminder today, 4days 2nex visit w/dr thh… hope he can see é fetus strong n growin…

if i ever hav é day where junior who is growin in my womb now arrives healthy n strong, i will pass out my maternity wear n junior clothes 2my ttc kakis, followed by é crowd in smh.. n é unsed pads, n opk…

i receive é favour from a old time ex-clg who was tryin very hard too, n i think it kinda help me a bit, as well as é good luck pad all é way from tw…

n of course go around returnin é wishes i made at different temples… é red eggs n donations…

i only wish 4a healthy bb, hope it comes true…

we went 2pasir ris resort area at night, had sm nice dinner, luckily it turn out fine. n tried a bubble tea who serve good hot ginger tea, nice taste n friendly packaging.
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bee hoon n fri finally

finally a decent place 2get my fbh… é arcade eatin house. hope i dun throw up lik yest brkfast… indeed i din throw up, i could even finish a kopi c…

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i told my only clg tat i may be takin maternity leave in dec. but m not confident it will really happen. i guess it’s better to tell sm1, in case i faint in office..

buzy evenin walkin around in ikea, waitin for dar dar, we had din @abc mkt, n sheng siong / ntuc grocery shoppin all over…

long week

full workin week. start off by throwin out all my lunch on mon, pick up mum n sis from airport n rushin 2gyne near hm 4a walk in aptm… dr saw fetus n he think it’s lookin ok… measurin 8.7mm, saw yolk sac n flikerin heartbeat… gave me neausea n constipation med… hope it helps…

slightly better tues, tired start wed…

i juz wish 4a healthy bb in our arms in 8m plus… é gyne on mon says it will b a xmas baby, dun worry, looks good now. é nurse also told me not to worry…

wed lunch i made a trip 2town 2buy sm corporate gift packagin materials… had a japanese bento @wisma, tasty but é meat servings were bit too little, esp é saba. i realised if i eat thgs i like, i tend 2feel better n less likely 2throw up (hopefully), but i still feel hungry easily… gosh, tat’s not good…
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if i can pass é oscar scan, we may go 2dif hospital tour, juz 2enjoy é moment…